A Beginning...

So, hey, I have a website now! That's new...

Honestly, it took a long time for me to build one of these. I attribute most of that delay to the same set of insecurities that led me to quip "Well, I'm either an up-and-comer or a flash-in-the-pan; to-be-determined" whenever anyone asked me how my writing was going. It's hard not to harbor such feelings, especially when you're trying to break into the field. I've found, at least in the SFF world, that process is much like walking into a party and finding yourself suddenly immersed in the middle of a decades-long conversation with people who are intimidatingly smart and impressive and talented and empathetic and shiny and AGGH they're all the best and I want to be friends with them and do good work and and and.... 

Yeah.

Kind of overwhelming, in every possible respect, both positive and negative.  I've been exposed to so much wonderful fiction and so many extraordinary people that I find myself sometimes near bursting with feelings of amazing community and personal writing-worth, and other times slipping into the bog of self-doubt, listening to Leslie Odom Jr. sing about how he wants to be in the room where it happens fifteen times on repeat while nodding so vigorously my fillings are in danger of flying out of my mouth. (#TeamBurr.)

But it's getting easier. Things stabilize. Confidence grows with experience. Doubts can be extinguished with a flamethrower or spaceship explosion or the sweeping hand of an ancient god. Speculative fiction is a damn cool place in which to grow past your doubts and insecurities. I'm glad to be here.

And, hey!, at the end of the day, I have three published works that I'm very proud of, and more that I hope to see published in the future. I'll kick my imposter syndrome down the road a bit (where, at least going by Aidan Doyle's amazing Hierarchy of Doubt, it will evolve into ever more sophisticated forms) and be happy to be where I am at this point in time.

Also, I should probably learn to blog better.